I am tired. Always.

 I just want a break. I haven't slept right for a few days. Maybe weeks. I just want to sleep and reading.

I have missed all my September arcs. I don't know because I've been reading them since mid-August so I had plenty of time to read them so I don't what happened.

I have finally finished painting my walls, having issues with the fireplace. I have wood paint and the last person has painted it with wall paint, so its not drying right. It'll need a few coats. I probably should have sanded it before.

I should have painted all the walls, but I think one wall and a half is for the best. If I ever move, it will be revealed that there's no paint behind the bookcase but that's future Rachel's problem when I move or decided to move it for some reason. It probably would have been quicker if I knew I was going to paint all the walls I did. I needed to paint part of the wall due to an incident with a candle.

I don't have much to say. Lots of reviews that I'm late with and should write. Also BuJo properly again so that's another thing I need to do. 

Book Review Moving (and the world still burns)

Haló Strangeos, this week has been a lot but let's start with the fun and important blog announcement. If you follow this blog for my reviews, then you probably would like to know that I'm going to stop posting Book Reviews on this blog. I will be cross-post the next few posts but if I like having the two different blogs then I'll be sticking to having this being my writing blog and having a separate book blog.

I won't delete my reviews off this blog. I have transferred my book reviews to my new blog so they are all in one place. I had thought about whether it was right to have a blog with my creative writing and book reviews in the one place. The final decision came to me wanting to review books as I read them, instead of always Wednesday. This might be weird to other people but I didn't want to mess up the schedule on here of always only posting on a Wednesday and Saturday. 

There is a few odd posts where I have posted on other days, however, I didn't want it to be a common thing. Basically, if you want more you now have to go to StrangenessBooks. I thought I would try Wordpress and honestly not loving it so far. Definitely feel that paywall and I hate white aesthetic of modern internet. I transferred all my book reviews over there so they are in one place and they will stay here. I don't know. I might continue to cross-post for the year. We'll see.

Now for my usual Saturday thing.
So this week has been a lot. Just Kidding is a real piece of work.

Harry Potter was such a chunk of my teen years and the fan community is what I'm actually attached to.

Just why during a global pandemic and protest against Police Brutality, do you decided now is the time that you declare loudly that you hate Trans people, some of those people are victims of police brutality and violent crimes all the time, whose murders and disappears sit unsolved for years.

Trauma is not an excuse to be hateful to other people, people who are more vulnerable than you. Especially, when none of those people have hurt you. Rowling has just spurted lies and prejudice without proof any kind of what she saying. She made it clear that she hates or is scared of Trans people.

People do not transition because they hate their birth gender. They do it because it doesn't fit. Autistic people are more likely to question society normals because we don't fit it.

This public toilet myth is so infuriating because public toilets have always been on good faith and anyone can just walk into them. There's not a magical staircase. I suppose that staircase tells you everything you need to know what Rowling thinks of XY owners. Trauma is an explanation, not an excuse.

Her opinion of Trans men is no better. Apparently,

I also just assume she has no idea that non-binary people exist in the field of being Trans. I don't hate being a woman, it just doesn't fit me. Well, not all the time. I'm definitely under the non-binary umbrella. Sometimes I think I'm genderfluid because I switch between femme and genderless sometimes. However, I just like dresses and related to the depression of women. Isn't that more fuck-up than anything else. I know I will always be treated like a woman because I feel comfortable in this body (for the most part) and I'm not gonna change it.

The facts now are that J.K. Rowling 1.Transpobic. 2.Ableist and 3.Queerphobic. If you think you're being an Ally by claiming a character is gay and then refusing to put it in a canon.
She also doesn't care about Scotland so I wish she would stop living here. So maybe bookshops have whole sections to Harry Potter and I doubt a chain is going to care she a piece of work.

I can feel sympathy for Rowling but mostly I'm angry at her for turning her trauma against other people. She hurting people. With all that money and all the injustices in the world, why does she feel the need to make stuff up?

She talks about her fear of sexual assault and invasion of women-only spaces, but those spaces aren't invaded by men playing dress-up. They can just walk-in. I don't even know what women-only means. Bathroom and locker rooms should have stalls. Is this secret women society women club that I missed invite for and all women are sore secrecy so of course, they don't tell me.

If we want to get into, she not saying Sex is real because she doesn't understand how sex. Intersex people are real and no transperson is saying it's not real. It's painfully real for them. We still in the early staging of understanding how sex works. It's not the same for every person.

What it really comes down to is sexual assault is a serious issue and that for all women. Trans and Cis all have stories, some worse than others.

The whole way this has been reported on is troubling. All these years we've gone without a peep from her first husband but now is when he comes out the woodwork. The Sun is garbage but this feels so much like propaganda and the perfect way to try and silence people who are critical of her. They are lot but that doesn't feel like much with whose in power.

LBGTQ+ rights are going backwards which is something we've seen in other countries. Basically, J.K. is getting what she wants by the UK parliament and hope she feels proud that she tory scrum. Yeah, labour ain't the bee all but it's very tory to pay your way into fucking people over.

This is a mess of thoughts, so in summary J.K. Rowling can continue to fuck herself. Remus and Sirius were totalling in love and she hates Queer people. She right that she not a TERF because a feminist wouldn't try and define someone for what's between their legs.

2019 Goals in Reflection

It's now 2020, but we still have to wrap up 2019. One hell of a year. Literally, hell is a good word for that went down and sadly the new decade doesn't look it will change much.

1. Read a book a week: Technically no, but in the sprint, I did this. I finish a book for 48 weeks out of the 53 we covered this year. 
2. Finish 12 series: "Okay, I would be happy with five because that's more than last year." I did not manage this. I finished three. There was another one I caught up, that might never be a finished series. So another goal I'll carry. 
3. Read More of My Own Books: I read 37 books of my own books, but I only read 13 books that I brought this year. Though, percentage-wise that is better than last year. This is a win on technicality basically.
4. Stop with the Insane Book Buying:  I have brought 133 books this year. Though it has been 52 days since I brought any books and I brought 255 books last year. I could do better as I was hoping to get that number back under the hundreds. 
5. Write a Review a Week: I have finished this year with books unreviewed for the second time. I did not do this. I think I did do more reviews this year. 
6. Write a Post a Week: No.....
7. Write More in General: Noooooooooooo... Did almost managed to do NaNoWriMo. Okay, Maybe I kinda did this one. 
8. Published a Video a Week: No. 
9. Do More Complicated Videos: Nope.
10. Continue Bullet Journaling: I did this. Not to the most specific details, some months but all months were covered. 
11. Exercise Most Days: No. This started strong but went out of the window with Kidney swapping that happened in January. I stopped doing a lot of things after. Strong starts to nothing happened a lot last year. I did do some walking, but not a lot of cardio. 
12. Apply for things: I applied to one thing, did not get it. This is better in that I finally did make myself apply. But I still procrastination the application meaning it could have been better when I submitted it. There were other things I could have applied for as well. 

I read a lot this year I guess. Moving on.

A List Of Not

My goal of applying for things is not going well. I just cannot bring myself to do it. As I'm writing this, I should be finishing an applicant for a potentially cool job.

Things I did instead of filling out this application:

• Went to the cinema and saw four films in a row (one was in 3D)
• Watch videos about the Drama that is Vegan YouTube (take victims for the love of God)
• Cuddle my dog like a baby
• Joined a readathon and start trying to come with a TBR for it.
• Have mini-panic attacks about wasting time instead of just answering these questions.
• Argue with my dog about her crying at me.
• Check my DNA update on Ansery.com (not sponsored). 
• Annoying my dog by waking her up
• Wrote several nonsensical tweets about this process.
• My dog demanded love by attack kissing me.
• Reminiscing about past Productions, I was involved with.
• Shutting down American Headcanons of Harry Potter. 
• Wrote this list.

I ended up summiting the application but have no faith that it will go well. But that's life. Who knows maybe they're be real impressed by rambling for six paragraphs for one question. I suck. If I hadn't procrastinated, but I also have been trying to read six library books in one day.

I get too anxious about these things. I haven't been pushing myself as much. I mean have been failing to write on this blog or review books either. I have done some smaller reviews but not to a standard at all. More just random thoughts about books that will never get proper reviews.

I haven't filmed anything, editing has been touched and then abandoned. I still want to do all these things. Part of it being a carer but mainly I think I've been letting the day get away from me. I lack structure. Maybe a schedule would help, but I'm not sure if a self-made one would work.

Not sponsored but I brought Grammarly Premimun. I wonder how it can possibly worth £20 a month. We're be seeing if it is.
I'm certainly going to cancel it after this month. I was just feeling slightly panicked, and I should go back into writing, so maybe it will be usefully.

Going to see Pink tomorrow which is bound to be a thing, since we did not manage to get Disabled tickets.

Trapped by Books

Life has been calmly ciatic. I have a large list of things I have to do and as the others have a definite deadline. Of course, I often find myself doing nothing and just laying in the briss of stress building. I feel like I don't have a day off any more. I have to read stuff and write things for class while moving.

Put the reviewing stuff on top of that. I have no time to read the stuff I want to read. While I want to read the books I request for review, they feel like a tour and stress me out to get it done. This doesn't need put me in the best mood when reading them and I don't think they get a fair review. Basically, weekly book reviews have to stop for now. I have idea of how to replace them that would take less time while inflecting my opinions on to the world but I don't want to make promises.

Reviews are something I like doing. However, there have been a struggle to write recently. There also not a priority. I want to create my own stuff even if contains some of the issues I would criticise in a review. Though, first drafts are for mistakes and to be criticise by everyone.

To summarise the reviews will come when I have time and when they ready instead of wrote in a rush the night before or lied about when I posted them. There could be big gaps during this month as I am moving and therefore have no weekends.

I spent today moving stuff into the house and will spend tomorrow doing the same thing. I want to make the most of my education and do other career stuff. The weekly random posts still stand and I will continue to work on the novel. I am still working on it but there's not enough to make a chapter and I will at least post complete chapter even not having a full idea how our story will get to its last point.

I will write to next week with something. I might do writing prompts that can be completed in a hour if I'm working on the novel but it's not happy to show itself off.

How 2014 went?

 So we have started a new year and BBC Hogmanay was as terrible as always even with having Twin Atlantic being a main feature. My siblings gave me money and nail polish set. The nail polish while cool was a surprise because I complain about polish more I than wear nail polish that isn't chiped black. My sister once again drank a bottle of Captain Jack Strawberry & Cream.

So lets go over last year goals in all it glory. So there were:

1. Read 100 books.
2. I want to finish writing The Stranger.
3. To continue with this weekly blog. Maybe even to have blog main topics pre-written and thought out more.
4. I think maybe focusing more on Creative Writing.
5. Start keeping a diary every day better than I did last year.
6. To pass my driving tests.
7. To write Personal Statement and applied to UCAS (University).
8. To do filming this summer so I have a good portfolio of stuff and not just use something because it all I've got.
9. To do well in my studies of all sort.
10. To get a job.
11. To read 50 books by British Authors
12. To read 60 books from existing book pile. 
13. To finish ten book series. 

I accomplished my first goal by reading 113 books this year. So that was easily.
I have not finished The Stranger but I do know where it going. I'm wondering if I give it a rest for while because I'm just not happy with it in current form. It needs edited badly but I also would really like a finished draft before I tear apart what's there. So once again, not finished.
Thirdly, this blog is still a live but I backtracked a lot of posts and I don't want to do. I've actually felt rather overwhelm with this blog a little bit. But then again that mostly the book reviews that stress me out since I blank on my opinion a lot because I don't take notes and sometimes take months after reading a book to actually get around to writing the review. There was no pre-written despite my many plans.

My creative writing while worked on, nothing was finish so I have nothing to show which sucks and my diary keeping was no better.

I have failed a theory test, my UCAS is yet to be sent and my portfolio is about to be edited in a panic. But hey I did do a lot of filming. I'm behind in studios and I have yet to pass a nab. Fun.

I decided not to get job, till this summer as I felt I would rather focus on my study and it was awkward with me disappearing for three weeks and starting college.

My more general books were mostly not done officially. I read 41 books by British Authors which probably means that the Americans still out rank the Brits. I still did pretty well as for the Mount TBR Challenge that was a complete fail with me only reading 19 books that I owned before 2014 occurred. Though, I did read a few of the books I brought this year. I finished 8 series this year so while not great is still pretty good. I'll do better next year. I mean I have already started and finished a whole series this year.

So mostly fail when it came to my goals, but I never gave up up on any of them and that's the important part. Important to keep pushing yourself till you get the goals you miss. I shall see you next week with a pre-written post about this year's goals.

Calling this thing a Career is probably going too far

Haló, so we are five days till Christmas. Isn't that distressing? I don't why as my family have agreed everyone getting late presents except for my parents because they still under the impression that people in their 20s still get visits from Santa. God, I've been in my 20s for a year and over half now, that another distressing thing.

I've only really got my youngest sister and little brother's. I'm petty sure she doesn't read my blog but who knows this might be the week checks out what I'm producing for the internet. My brother (the older one of course) suggested that I say I do this thing to improve my career on my personal statement. I don't why I find that so laughable. I mean I do technically make money off this blog, but the way google ads works I've not made enough to actually receive any of those earning. And that's not a clue for you start clicking randomly on ads. I've got to say though, if on YouTube if I actually like the person video I'm more likely to finally click or watch an ad to see what the hell the ad trying to pug me. Maybe find this as career laughable as I'm pretty sure that its not career smart to bad mouth your hopefully future peers' work but that again if the only people I've actually been somewhat mean to are people I would avoid even if I have publicly rated a 1 star. Also I don't think I would cut off writer completely if I gave them one star unless I really hate their basic writing style which you can't tell unless you've read at least two of their books (not from the same series) or they've been writing for a while so they probably not going to get majorly better or their themselves are morally objectionable to me in a way I can't get over (which is the main reason the hype of Ender's Game will never get me) or probably the most likely none of the plot summaries of their other books speak to me.

Back to the point, maybe it due with the amount of complaining I do on here. Though, if anyone would like to pay me to complain about things then you welcomed to give me a offer. My email information can be found somewhere on here.

I guess nothing that much happen this week. My personal statement is what could be called a finished state but I'm not sure it actually conveys my passion for film. I think I actually regret looking up the tips before I had a finished version as it limited me and made me paranoid. They say they want a personal statement from YOU, but then they give a list of words not use whilst saying not to use a thesaurus. I say, use a thesaurus but only use the words you already knew before you looked. It can reminded you of words that you already knew which would fit better.

The thing I'm confused about, is should I go in to depth about film and book theory. It so hard and limiting that even being told what they look for gives me so little. I feel fake when I gushed about classic films like Sunset Boulevard, which is incredibility annoying considering it the only film I can think about.

Is it bad that I've sort of been threatening not coming home for Christmas next year, before I'm even accept anywhere, because the dorms are open and fun could be had by myself. I'm going to fill my dorm with lights and tinsel, and then neglect to take any of it down until I leave that room so the cleaners will talk about girl whose been celebrated Christmas for six months especially if I always make sure to have Christmas music blaring when ever they come.

I'm going to miss my dog and having a cat to annoy when I go to uni. I wish my application was sent away but I feel like I have to wait to hear back from my tutor before I send it and anyway I think I have to wait for her to write my reference before I can send away because I'm doing as a individual.

I'm going now as I have a long list of things to do this holiday. I mean I would like to have passed my theory test before I go back to college and have a organised room before I leave for uni. Also As are a thing I would like.

Farewell, join me next week where we will be sticking to traditional and evaluating this year's goals.

Oh, Trampi. I'm replacing you.

My mother has decided that I'm getting a Trampoline and a trampoline I shall have. It should come on Monday. It Octotal shape. You may know that I already have a trampoline, well I've been having issues with that one as it's bars snapped, fixed it and then other bar snapped and I lay on ground to test it jump-ability.

Yeah, that's fucked. I now can look forward for to have a reason to be outside during Twilight. I've kinda been going outside, wandering about for a wee bit and coming back in. My theory is my mum is that my mum decided to get me it because my dog has been unsufferable lately and when I go out, he goes out.

He's annoyingly cleavor. He reads me in a hoodie with my ipod as going out; so he jumps up at me and smiles at me till I break or in most occasions go back up stairs. He then brangs through my door and then lick me to death. My mum can also set him on and I can't set him on anyone else since I was only one still in my house he bothered to learn. I feel such guilt about leaving him for three weeks whilst we go off to Florida. I'm planning to sneak him into my dorm room somehow when I go off for Uni. It doesn't help that he 13 and I get paranoid about him sometime.

I spent most of today to catching up on Reviews. I managed to finished four today, so good start on tackling the other seven I have to catch up. I have read two of those books and got a good chuck read of one today, so review are just a case of writing, though if were that easily they would have been written before. I don't have a lot of books waiting to be review in June so hopefully I'll have caught up by the end of next month.

Today is obviously the end of May, meaning next time I type to you I will only have 11 months left of being 21 years old. It's probably not good to think like that. I'm thinking of posting a video everyday in June as I have a list of videos I got behind on. Maybe video every other day would be more realistic but I guess I want to push myself as I know there are ways of doing such a feat.

I still have to do something about my TBR Mount challenge. I have a few series that I want to get through so I think that will help me do it. I've got a lot of reading ahead of me. I would have a lot reading a head of me anyway. It is my thing.

My room is livable state but still not done. I have these boxes that I have to move across the room to swap their places. There is other stuff but the boxes are currently the main mission.

That's all for today, I have more reviewing to do.

Missing in Writing

I've been sort of have been MIA when it comes to this blog and my other internet presences in general. I got sick whilst trying to do all these things and once I was well again I had to focus on a musical that look like it wasn't going to happen (though I seem to say that every year and every year it seems we're more unprepared for opening tham ever).

I've just not feeling it. I literally have a stack of videos waiting to be edited since the start of April and I have yet to even start on them. Nevermind the videos I need to for May. To be honest I don't myself getting on to that till after I have managed to do something about my room.

Speaking of that issue, I have finally properly trying to conquer the mess that is my room. It feels like I've been sorting it for years. My new bed finally has something underneath it. It has actually got to the point where I am throwing stuff out but I do still appear to have all my school work since first year. It's the guilt that makes me keep it, specially when it was stuff that I was meant to give them back before I left. I have textbooks that I don't remember ever coming into contact with. I think they might be my sib's.

I also have every issue of Kerrang! that I have ever brought. It's a weekly magazine and I had subscription for years. You can do the maths. Hint: there are 52 weeks in a year. I know I shouldn't keep them, but who knows maybe it will be collectable in a few years or I will want to read all again. I also have all my groovy chicks which

I haven't wrote a review in awhile and with that absence I have developed a opinion. What I'm saying is that I can actually write something and plan to backtrack the review I negated to write for their scheduled times.

I've also not read a lot and it didn't help that I had to basically give up on two books. I'm still way ahead of my goodreads goal though. Not so much on my TBR mountain challenge. I've read 6 books out 60 for that one. Need to change that soon. 

I'm off now, I've got things to write, books to read & review and messes to stare at. Type you next week. 

April Rain

With less than a week left in the month of April, I figure it's a good idea to go over what I actually managed to accomplished this month. The answer is not much.

My best laid schemes have went agley.Firstly,My novel writing stopped half way through the second week of the month and never started up. My blog post stopped being posted on time in any form either so writing of any kind did not happen the way it was supposed to.

The  Review-a-Thon never happen, but lets be honest that was always going to be a pipe dream. I think if I was going to do actual, successfully review-a-thon, I would need to have majority of the books I was going to review; read at the very least, reviews actually written before I announced my intention to do so. Probably not till after the summer, because maybe I go book mad when my book guilt finally catches up with me. I stare at my bookcase just thinking about it and my stats on Netgalley still bug me.

I broke my Book Ban, I should not be left in Waterstones by myself or any bookshop. I'm back on my ban with the strong intent and no plans to go anyway near any book selling shops any time soon. I must fight temptation.

I'm still behind on my TBR mount challenge, in fact even far behind as no books from the pile were read. The strangle is this doesn't bug me as much as it should.

My exercising has currently stopped due to illness and musical. I plan to restarted it once the musical is over.

I have also stopped making videos. Filmed videos at the start of the month and never got around to editing them. So my YouTube is saddly not active. I've stopped watching BookTube videos as well, just not been in the mood for them.

I'm going to go now before I think of more failures. Join me next time where I lament over the fact I'm almost 21 and doing nothing with my life.

Back to the Hydro

I'm still sick. Can you believe it? I think I might have throat inflection. I'm going to make a doctor appointment on Tuesday if isn't gone by then. I have this dry cough, making honking noises is getting old.

On the more excited side of life, I saw McBusted on Thursday. Their first official concert, they said so themselves. I drove up half the way there, mum the other half due to the fact it wouldn't have been legal if I had drove that part of the road. My driving is coming together of sorts. Soon I will be running down children and old people who don't leave the street fast enough.

So McBusted were petty great. They've really matured in ten years, tripled breast, jumping on each others backs, Matt in a dress and still obsessed with Back to the Future. We almost got shot with a t-shirt by Matt but the people who got there early did instead.
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The Review-a-thon is not happening. I have not written any reviews written for it and as I'm letting everything else slide I may well let this on go down the slide after the rest of my plans. I suppose it was a silly idea consider how sick I am of Reviews right now. I'm just finding it really hard to write my thoughts down. I've got to stop requesting so many books basically. I think I'm just going to slip reviews on Thursday randomly or something.


I've also accidentally requested a review copy twice and they sent it to me twice so I'm not sure what I should do with it. Suggestions are welcome. 

Due to the concert I've also missed my exercise schedule and see no way of me catching up with it at this point so I'm letting this week go and will start a flesh on Monday.

I call this guess where we were sitting.

More disappointingly, I have not wrote anything of my novel in over a week now. I'm deeply annoyed with my self. I don't know if I'm going to attempt to catch up or not as I have three library books to read and return in two weeks.


I also happen to have broken my Book Buying Ban on Friday, in a major away but I did show some retaint but obviously not enough. This is also after sneaking charity super market books for a pound. I went 38 days without any buying full price books. I have spent more than a tenner I would have counted the charity books as a break. I'm back on it and hopefully I'll best myself. Maybe that will become a thing.

  

I'm gonna flee now to do stuff, like thinking about looking for black trousers.

 

P.S. Trying to put photos in these posts is such a pest. They never go where I want. 

Sleeping is fun but wastefully.

Today was not productive in the sense that I stayed up to 5am just so I could exercise in peace, so by the time I had waken, taken a spin to town and finally sat down to do some writing of sorts it 6 a clock and then I feel asleep again. I woke up at eleven so it's a rush to get this out on time (that my story and I'm sticking to it).

My excuse is that I'm sick, also I have a messed up sleeping pattern. I had sore throat where I woke several days without the ability to speak which made rehearsal difficult. It then developed into a stuffed nose, left side of my face being achy, I can't hear well on that side and my deep, gut retching  sounding cough.

I got so many medicine sweets/things to unblocked your nose in my house that you think we raided the store. We didn't as I didn't feel up to it. Despite being ill, I have continued doing my exercise and have actually lost weight this month. 4.8 pounds so soon I will be skinny and people will worry about me. Yes, I make terrible jokes about serious issues. I love chocolate. It got easy doing it.

It also makes up a stressful time as I don't have room in my room do some of the exercise and therefore I have to scout the livingroom until it empty and then ten minutes in, someone walks in, letting the dogs in who lie in awkward places on the floor and try to lick my feet. The cats just stare at you and you have the distracting moment of realising that that there cat hiding under the table.

Camp NaNoWriMo was going okay, I wasn't hitting the target everyday but other days I was writing a thousand words so I was expecting to catch up, unfortunately I slowed down due to to be terrible at writing review.  I'm terrible as I struggle to think of anything to write when I'm dealing with it. I end up just throwing thoughts at them. I think perhaps I should stop requesting so many books which I've said before, probably.

The review-thon is definitely happening but I have so far done nothing in preparation which is something that going to change hopefully the next time I'm writing this.

That's all I can think to say to you this week, join me next time where I talk about McBusted because I'm seeing them on Thursday. I'm off to write a review that will make wonder if I have opinions of my own.

CATSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An Assiduous April (a planned one anyway).

Yes, I did use a thesaurus to get that title. I wanted alliteration in my title and 'busy' starts with a B. 'Active' might of worked but I don't like the connotations of that word; especially since something I'm going to be talking about is exercise and that not what I want you to take from the title. I suppose some would argue would be the more literate title because of it connotations of exercise. It also sounds like NHS scheme,  I actually think there is one called 'Active April'.

Now that spend a full paragraph explaining my word choice in the title of today's post, let me explain what I actually mean by it. I have a lot of stuff going on this April, all of them things I have decided I wanted to do this April (except one that only really gets busy in the last few days of April).

I already mention a few these already on here, such as the Review-a-thon which I have decided is definitely happening during 21st to the 27th due to the fact that I have a concert during the week I had planned and other family stuff might be happening. Also it will give me more time to read and write reviews meaning there will be more reviews. This is a good thing because I haven't finishing reading books for next Wednesday review. I have three days to do it. I managed it somehow, I've done it before.

I'm also doing Camp NaNoWriMo this month. I want to finish my novel and should be doable as I have figured out how I get the end. I've know how my book ended when I started this proper first draft at least. I've actually wrote the epilogue which I feel I might be too happy with. It took me years to figure it out how to join the middle to the climax of the novel, but it came to me from something I randomly wrote to add angst which gave me the idea for a later scene which is the scene I needed. It shouldn't be surprising that to progress with a story you have to write and not just lie in bed thinking about it.

I had about 36,000 words wrote so far so I gave myself the goal of 20,000 words. If I finish writing my novel before writing that many words, I shall move on to writing short stories as that is something I really liked doing and haven't done much of it. I kinda lost my creative writing vibe for a while which is sad, but it works.

So hopefully by the end of this month I have a complete first draft and few short stories. I'm so looking forward to getting my teeth into editing it. I know of a few issues already but I wanted to have a full draft before tackling them. If I know all the rough scenes I already have, then I know everything I need to add or should take out. I think it going to be too long so I'm petty sure I'm going have to take stuff out. I think the start might be too slow and too much going to take place
in the last 10,000 words. I worry about that at the time.

The most out of character and hardest challenge of the month is that I have started exercising.  One of those video programmes things that you do basically everyday for a few months. I have became rather unfit from doing nothing and my trampoline has mysteriously broke again. I want a six pack is what I'm actually trying to say. Frankly, I would be impressed if I managed a flat stomach. Packs are for people who care. I've gained weight so far but lost cm so hopefully it working and my muscle feel weird. I now own a sports Bra that is awesome because it has pockets and I want all bras to have pockets.

I'm also still doing Musical so dancing and singing at the same time. Last year we open in the last week of April but we opening (and closing) in May. I have three whole lines to remember so four hours, then six hours a week of doing that.

That all I got to say this week and since I'm rather busy, I'm now off to read, write and eat a tub of icecream. Kidding about that last one or am I? Find out next week (probably not).

Reviewing-a-Thon (I have a scheme).

I currently have full months of reviews planned which is basically a good thing. I like planning and organising things. It's the execution of what I've planned that is the issue. For the past few weeks I've been having issues with getting my reviews out on their due dates. I'm kinda annoyed by this as there is actually no excuse for it.

That's not really my point but what you might find what write next a bit mad because of the above fact.

I have several books that got off NetGalley, some even years ago, that I have yet to scheduled review date  for and have no idea when I will review them as they're already out or they're coming in April and April's planned reviews are all basically books that are coming out on the 1st of May. I don't know but I got like 6 books that will the hit the shelves on that date. Frankly, I don't like it. I know I don't actually have to a review out before their released. Probably a week after their out would be fine or just soon after it been released.

However, I felt guilt doing that especially when I have had access to those books long before they came out.There is also this Statistic on the ratio of books that you've been aproved and sent feedback. My is siting at round 50% and I don't like it. The recommended is 80% and I would like mine to be 80% because I'm paroaid and don't like these books just waiting in Review Limbo.

I'm think of having a Review-a-thon of sorts during the week of 14th to 20th of April. I will post at least on review a day, except for Saturday because Saturdays are for me to spurt nonsense at you. This might be hella unrealistic but I'm going to try. There will definitely be extra reviews going up on this week. Sure, it might end up being 2 on Thrusday but that is deal with the problem anyway.

A video saying basically the same thing but different things as well will be appearing on Wednesday on my BookTube. Keep on alert for it.

For those interested in the Saga of the Placement. I do still not have a placement. In fact, I was made to go all the way into college (which is 2 hour bus ride there and back) just to do this. I was petty piss. I just because I don't have a job, does not mean I don't have better things to do than riding bus and messing about the college all day. My parents agreed to take me in as it was meant to be a 1pm start but if they hadn't I would have to had to get up at 6am, get at the college 10 to 9am, to nothing all day at the college. I probably would have snapped if that had been the case. She also sent someone to the wrong place which is baffling as the name of the places were completely different.

I've only got three weeks left of this course meaning my placement is seeming more and more unlikely. If I could I would only only go to the one day of interest rather than the day we do nothing. I guess bus rides do mean you have nothing better to do than read but then again there something appealing about just staring out the window.

I'm now off to read and kid on to be tidying my room. Books just seem more important at the moment than whether or not my junk is on display. Though, once I'm finished with the junk I can reorganise my bookcases.

A Forgetive Note

I just realise that I forgot to talk about the Advise session I had last week, which was stupid of me considering how short last week's post was. I guess no damage done as I can obviously talk about it this time.

Petty standard stuff except for the fact that they negated to call out my course so everyone that was there for it missed the beginning of the talk thing about the college.Frankly, I don't know why there just didn't have a talk for each course since I know other people for that course had been there yesterday and there was another one right after us. The talk was the same as last time and boring.

We then had to wait ages for to be interviewed, our course really lucked out on that. Most of us were still waiting when the next Advise Session was meant to start. They said I was over qualification but I could get in if I want or just do the two highers. I kinda want to discuss it more with them. I'm not sure. I have to think about it. There sent me a weird email saying I have a conditional saying something about proof. I think that mean they want to see my SQA certificates as I forgot to bring them with me.

So the course thing I'm is a joke. Only one person got a placement this week and that was actually at the college canteen. The person running the course is joke. Her excuse was that she was sick last week but it was meant to be sort at least 3 weeks ago. She also claimed that I hadn't told her what I wanted to do. Lies. I filled out the form like everyone else. It very disappointing as it was one of the main reason I stayed on the course. Why couldn't I have got on the Springboard course?

Books came today. Got two more coming and that should be all the books that I have paid for coming in the mail. That all I really want to say this week. My reviews this week were done on the scape of my teeth and some might able to question the date I claim they appeared on this blog but oh well, I got them all read and reviewed this week. I see you in the next where I will be reviewing books that I have been out for a months (but not years) and probably bitching about something.

Valentine's and Loving things.

So it was Saint Valentine's Day and I bet you all dying to know how it went with my imagery boyfriend. Well, Batman and Sherlock Holmes were both busy being gay with Superman and John Watson (can you believe that they all went on a Double date without me. I was the one who introduced them to each other).  Great, I've just gave myself another fict idea that I will never get around to writing but now I have a fun idea to think about. Is it weird that my imagery boyfriends have my boyfriends of their own in my mind?

Seriously, I don't really see Valentine's as a big deal. Even if I did have a special someone, whose was real, I doult I would want to do something special especially since every other couple seems to be out at the same time.  Wouldn't any gift you gave them be cheaped? Also Valentine's is meant to be when you confess your love? The person you're in a relationship hopefully already knows that love them. That said, I would totally accept any chocolate they want to give me. Especially if they brought it today cause it's probably on sale.

I spent most of the day in bed with my usual lover. Yes, my laptop who has a escaped a name unlike Gerard Arthur (my middle-aged typewriter remember). I think I might have once named it. Have no clue what it name was. Been playing Facebook games whilst listening to CreepyPasta. I even started writing one. Not sure if it will work out well. But it there.

I have also been visiting my mistress again. It mistress right now as I'm not meant to be buying books. I recently brought books off Waterstones not thinking they would be coming till April. Well, some of them came this week. So now I have packages awkwardly lying in a pile on bookcase waiting to be dealt with. It shouldn't be so hard to avoid buying books. Maybe if I get into my head that I actually have no money in my bank as I really have to save for Flordia especially since I got the weirdest letter off Income Support where my money randomly lowers for a week and then rises tiny bit the next.

 I've been feeling rather tired lately. I've been having issues with the course thing I'm on. Life is diffcult.

I'm hopefully going to be building my bed next week as I'm off offically and also getting armchair in my room which is something I thought would never happen. I have to get my room ready though. I'm also a bit panicked about my reviews as I need two up this Wed and I haven't read them yet. But hear I did finish a book series this week so that is something.

That's enough about my love life. I shall write to you next week (which will hopefully have two book reviews). Now I'm off to read like the wind.

I took photos of that fallen tree today.

Flordia, Life and Book Related Plans.

I have some exciting news that Flordia is booked for October 2014. It definitely happening I will be leaving Scotland in October to experince a American Halloween and returning in Noveber to experince a Scottish winter. One of those is a lot funner than other. This course means that I will have to stop spending so much money on books which is something I should be doing anyway. But I'll need dollars to survile the states and there will be things I will want to buy over there.

Obviously, I will be going to Disney World and Wizarding World of Harry Potter expansion which expansion is going to be opened by the time we get there. Also I can get excited over Universal Halloween Horror Nights.  We going to for three weeks so does mean I'm going to have some stuff pre-written/filmed in case I don't have easy access to the internet. Just because I'm going on Holiday doesn't mean I can abandon my online duties. I'm petty sure no one would really notice but that's totally not the point. I got to stick of my goals and who knows I might even be head before that.

I've decided February is going to be active month of reviews. Every Wednesday will be having two review this month. I read two of the books that I planed to review; I've wrote one review and hoping to finish the other one tonight. I've started reading another ones. I was initially planning force myself to read the force myself to read the next two but I'm thinking of reading the next Vampire Academy series as I'm sort of in the mood for it and I have to eventually return the series to the library. I mean I don't want to kill myself over the reviews. If I do this I'll have reviewed all my review copy things that already out or coming out this month. There is one other book that I thought was going out this year but it was actually last year but doesn't really count as I got after I had came up with my review plan for this month. I also be one book ahead of my British Book Challenge goal of reading 50 British books and I have two weeks of leg room anyway.

I think I'm going to start doing Review Plans every month. I think it good idea cause then it won't be panicked that I'm not on top of netgalley or my book challenges. I would just like to be more organised this year in general.

My new bed came on Tuesday and my room is still not ready. There also talk of wallpapering the Wall of Damp that would be near impossible to do with the new bed built. I got to move the chest thing out of there. I've been told to just dump in my brother's room. I'm hoping to do it tomorrow, well not hoping as I really have to do.

I started a hospitality course thing that will hopefully lead to a job. I'm not really liking the course so far and it doesn't help that some of the people on it seem to think it possible to get lunch in half a hour. The more I think about it, the more I realise that I really wouldn't like a full-time job due to how much it would limit some of my plans. It would be good to have a full time job during the summer (a.k.a seasonal work). However, I'm meant to be building up a film portfolio so will I have enough time for life this summer. I'm going to be a proper student again soon (hopefully) so I won't be able to have a full time job anyway. I just feel sort of anxious of the idea going off my carer's allowance. I might not even get job so no point of thinking about it at the moment.

I guess I just like to panic myself for no real reason. That all I've got to say this week so see you in the next.

A Day and Half without Power

I am now a graduate, no not the type with a degree or diploma. But I have so many certificates. Most of them useless, but hey I have them god damn it. Basically, this my complicated way of saying that I finished that Prince's Trust Course with a Presentation night that they like to call Graduation. It felt as meaningfully and as important as Nursery school Graduation was. Though, now I can no longer say that everything went down hill after Graduation (I have specifies it now). We all got Alphabet books which they no longer use to teach the Alphabet. I'm such a positive person, that must really show on this blog, doesn't it?

You can tell that I'm really inspired by this course to do great things with my life. Frankly, I'm not. Though, I now know what I'm hopefully doing next year if I get into the course, of course. I still have to write a Personal Statement thing and it's in high demand. So you know worrisome. I also might be a little over qualified for it. It basically to do more Highers so I can finally get an A. I plan to do 3 more next year. Should be hilarious next to the other five.

The presentation thing went fine we took pictures, people cried for some reason. We got terrible take-way. I order a large doner kebab, however, I received a tray of meat with a single, tiny pita bread, which I work out that pita bread cost a pound. So in summary, Fuck you Dante's in Dumfries, even if I lived in Dumfries I would never fucking go to you again. I get very worked out about my food. I mean the Kebab meat was still nice, but still I didn't order a tray of it. I knew I should have just order Pizza. I didn't understand why we didn't get Chinese or Indian, anyway.

We also had the opportunity to get our Hair and Make-up done by Students studying such thing. I took this opportunity by having my hair curled and make-up applied. I did now however touch my make-up with more colour.

We had went shopping on Thursday where we had got £50 off this other Trust to buy clothes for our Graduation/Interview wear. The boys all brought suits, the other girls brought party dresses/cat suits that there's no way you would go to a interview in. Though, in truth none of the stores in town really had anything at all. I mean if I had wanted to go down the party dress line, I saw nothing. I did get lucky with buying real leather brogue shoes for £6. There said were half price at £12. My family have it in their head that I have incredibly lucky just because I cleared out a School charity raffle thing one year. I think it more if you put yourself out there, you bound to eventually win.

Look at me Speaking.

I also won books (and minty biscuits) on Tuesday. I've been doing the British Book Challenge this year and there is a monthly draw of reviews entered which is of course a book prizes. I won November's which I was quite chuffed with considering that I didn't enter at all in October. Tuesday hadn't really been a good day, just little stuff that did it, though winning books turn it around some what. I was actually so depressed that I had actually already purchased four books before I had found out my winnings. I'm not really excited about the books I won, but that mainly to do with the fact that I never check out them out and I figure I just leave them till they arrived to see what they're about. However, any books make me happily, especially when they free to keep.

It strange I won this month as I've decided that December will be the month of reviews. I mean I'm planning to catch up on the books that I need to read/write reviews on. You know just getting all unfinished business over before the end of the year. These upcoming Wednesdays will have several books and you should enjoy that. I'm working on two right now and know what the one after them will be. also need to finish tidying my room.

The other major event of this week, was the fact that my house was without power for two days. Though, I only experienced a day and half of it as I had just left when power disappeared. I mean we had power issues before then. The power had cut out in the midnight of the night, I know this because I woke at 5.40ish to darkness. My TV was off and my alarm had reset so it was good thing I woke up when I did or I would have ended up missing the bus. Well, I would have been lucky if the bus had show up at 7.15am like it was meant to. However, it never showed due to the same reason we lost power and now have a fallen tree in a garden. I'm sort of going to miss that tree but it's a lost cause. You probably know that the wind was windy as hell and took down several trees/branches causing hazards on and blocking the roads in South of Scotland/something about the North of England. The power also briefly went off right before I left at house at 8.30am and apparently went off straight after I finally left for College. It then didn't come on till Midnight on Saturday. We had been told it would come on at 10pm on Thursday, then 6pm on Friday, then 11pm.

In the meantime, we had a lot of fun with fire and takeaways. We had MacDonalds, KFC and chip shop. We try to warm up the left over KFC by the Gas-fire (which was the only heating we had, really miss the Rayburn at times like that). I read Batman comics by Candle light and attempt to write a review by candle light before losing patience with the idea of work. BATMAN SPOILERALERT!(Though, I'm sure most Batman fans have heard about this already), I read the Death of Damian Wayne by Candle light, I'm just hating (not in the crap sense, more emotional pain of it) the whole of arc of Bruce grieving. It just so terrible. I mean Damian had start to grow on me but its the Bruce's suffering that really getting to me. It just so sad. I don't like and it the tiny stuff as well. Like cat Alfred sitting on his grave and stuff. SPOILERALERT! OVER!

I've made quite leeway with my pile of comics. I've Batman:The Dark Knight (which turns out is being rebooted as Asylum next year). I've got four comics left to read in Batman ones and then it Justice League and Superman action left. Well, before this month actual comic arrive. Though, I'm sort of annoyed with Titan as last month Superman has yet to arrived. I'm going to contract them about it because it sort of ridiculous how late some of the comics come. The last Dark Knight comic came a day early but that doesn't make up a Superman and Justice league one was sort of late too.

I also had to sleep downstairs on the couch due to the power cut as my mum has a thing about candles being upstairs. I suppose my mum has point considering how many books I have in my room that I would hate to see burn. Also all my other stuff is important I guess.

This week has actually been that eventfully. Next week probably won't be, but it certainly will be busy as I have Panto rehearse every night week and then the actual thing so I shall be rather tired by Saturday(a.k.a Opening night). Type to you then.

Leaving the Library A.K.A only be surround by books at night and weekends.

Proof that I do occasionally consumed alcohol.

I'm in Glasgow (sort of) right now being focus to be in the presence of non-home bound family member. Doing stupid things like going to TGIFriday to drink cocktails. Well, we actually went yesterday and droved up then too.

I had my last week of work experience at a University library. I finish reading the 'Life of Pi' for review and wrote two reviews in the end (though I had read that book before). I also replaced stickers on the books. So much fun...I'm going to miss the shelving. I actually am. It was tiny bit of challenge but I really like organising book to a system. It doesn't matter if it it my making or someone else's. As long as it not just big Alphabet line because honest you always give up by the time you get to F when you're just browsing for say Horror.  So tempted to offer to organise my local library shelves. They just so terrible and they get doubles of books no one likes.

As user of local library, hell I even actually give them money because I keep forgetting to renew my books on the right day, I have every right to moan about the stupid mistakes. However, I plan to do nothing about fixing/avoiding in the future about these annoyances. It just how I roll. 

Today I actually left the home of one sister (I frankly wanted to stay in hotel), visit another and spent too much money. My nephews are somewhat cute. The youngest one has a thing for going through bags and stealing books from said bag. I sort of don't mind because an obsession with books is just something I can get behind. Even if reading them isn't currently involved with that obsession. Someday it probably will be. Till then stealing books is the right path. I mean the Book Thief and I know that's what I did. However, I was lead a stray.

We went shopping today where I spent too much money. Brought a onesies, wristbands featuring Batman and my favourite aliens and also in my highest form immaturity brought several Monster High dolls when we went Toys R Us.  I was probably too happy when my mum told me we were going. We also went to Asda where I definitely spent too much money on books and children in need merch.

We also tried out the wheelchair in a public for the first time, it was a lot easier on lament floor than on carpet in the hallway. I was one doing the pushing. I did almost crash into people as it was awkward to see beyond the chair when turning corners. My mum made a joke that I need the chair now from pushing her around day.It wasn't that bad on my arms, though the top of my feet hurt hitting both on them on the bar things on them. I wonder if I'll get bruises.

To finish we had proper Fish & Chips on the way home. That all for this week, now I'm going to bed to pounder what I'm going to do with Dark Knight trilogy Blu-ray considering I don't own a player.